finding the path...

i’ve been trying to identify the paths with the heart in my life… for some areas of my life i do have some paths that i can see in front of me and for others… i know the path is there somewhat.. but right now its kinda covered in a mist/fog or even foliage… i have to figure out how to clear it so that its presented to me clearly…

what happens after you see the path? the most obvious and direct answer is to walk on it right? yes of coz… but before that… i will need to have the courage to make my feet take the first step forward… and that’s where many people are stuck… i know coz i’ve been and am there at this present moment… usually when this happens i can feel two ‘types’ of emotions… one seems to be consist of fear and generally negative (leading me to not doing anything at all but look for distractions) and the other is this exhilarating feeling that i think can be equate to the point before you step off the bungee jump platform (not tt i’ve done it before.. lol!) which is generally positive and you know somehow you will be rewarded at the end of it…

steve pavlina would probably say that the first emotion of ‘courage’ isn’t truly courage at all.. but the ego limiting oneself and i must say i agree… whereas the second is a much more rewarding form of courage because it derives from deep within yourself… and it comes frm a basis of truth and love… that is the kind of courage i am seeking to fill my life with… and the best thing is… i know it’s in me already… i’ve felt that kind of energy before and so it’s definitely not something foreign… but i think its just a matter of clearing all that mental clutter in my head when the ego start to act up so that i can access to that deeper sense of courage in me…

i tell myself this now… ‘find the path with the heart and have the courage to follow it‘ =) feels good…