caffetteria

just for my reference…

i want to feel till my heart can take no more

voglio sentire fino al mio cuore puo sopportare non più

voglio sentire fino al mio cuore non ce la fa più

i want a conscience that will keep me wide awake

voglio la coscienza che sara tenere mi completamente sveglio

voglio la coscienza che sara tenere completamente mi sveglio

my friend just sent me this link to a list of moral dilemma questions… i’ve read through some of them and it’s not that hard to answer some of the questions (not as morally tough as i would believe) but it does give you food for thought… here’s a couple to start you off with…

Q: You discover your partner is having an affair. Would you be more or less hurt to discover their affair was with a member of the same sex?

Q: How much money, if indeed you have a price, would you need to be paid to sleep with person who hadn’t showered or washed for a month?

Q: Amongst your friends, family and colleagues, who would be the most likely to appear in an ‘adult-themed’ movie?

Q: You are given the opportunity to discover the exact date you will die. Would you want to know?

Q: Which would you prefer, to be 100% emotionally content or 100% financially content for the rest of your life?

Q: Which of the following powers would you most like to possess? The power to become invisible, the ability to read minds or x-ray vision?

Q: Your partner is offered $100,000 to be photographed nude and the pictures published in a magazine. What would your reaction be?

Q: You win a prize in a competition of two-weeks holiday every year for the next 20 years. The only catch is that it has to be the same town or city every year. Where would you take your holiday?

Q: You can be reincarnated as any living creature except as a human. What would you like to be reincarnated as and why?

Q: You have to make one species of animal extinct. Excluding insects, which species would you make extinct?

Q: If you could change your life, would you rather be a film star, a rock star, a famous sports person or prefer to just remain yourself?

Q: If you could spend one week in any period of history, which period would you choose?

also check out this hilarious clip of the five stages of grief/death.. watever… featuring a giraffe stuck in quicksand!! ahahhahahahahahahaha

p.s. okies just found this great para about love whilst googling stuff… just gotta share it here…

Real, deep, solid love is different. It is the decision to want the best for someone and to make this person happy. The feelings are different to the feelings of falling in love, and you don’t always feel anything. But the cheerful feelings will come back again. This is not always the case with the feelings of falling in love. This feelings you will only have a few month or maybe a year or two. The disappear and they will not come back in the same form.

To make the decision to love someone really and deeply, you must know this person personally. This takes some time and can not happen in a few weeks or month. (Thats why I think its not a good idea to get married too soon!). But it is not enough to know the other person, you also must know yourself very well to see if the other person could be in line with you. For this one needs to be obtain a certain age and maturity. Nobody is perfect so one also needs to know the one’s and the others quirks and to accept them. If you truly love someone then you respect this person for who he or she is. You love the person itselfe and not the great dream of it. And you don’t want to change the person, but accept every bit of it. You don’t have to agree with everything, but you can life with it. Misunderstandings are allowed and you may have some arguments, and even then you love the other person wholly. You can talk about everything and share your innermost thoughts and worries and there is a mutual understanding (or at least you try to understand the reverse side and accept it). Everyone can really trust the other one. Noone needs to wear a mask. Both parts can be their selfes and don’t need to dissimulate.

went out wif a couple of ex-colleagues last night and we got to talking about what are the things we value (ahahah yeah we’re really philosophical nowadays) and everyone listed their top three values… so i’m just goin to write it down here before i forget and see if these really are what i value the most – they are in no particular order:

1. personal development
i have always liked learning things… i’m a bit academic in this sense… so i want to be able to improve myself continuously and learn… hopefully i can apply them as well.. ahhahaha

2. freedom
this really figures very high on my list… i want to be able to have the choice to do what i want… to think what i want… gotta work on this more…

3. relationships
my colleague mentioned love and family in his value-system… but i hesitate to split them up like that… instead i use the word relationships… between family and friends as well as colleagues and casual acquaintances…

it’s the first day of 2009… and i’m feeling really good… been having a good feeling about this year since late last year so i truly hope it will be true =D

as usual i don’t make resolutions coz i never follow them (yes yes…) but i think deep down i have a list of things i would like to be doing or have achieved by the time 2010 comes around…

i spent the last day of 2008 nuaing at home, surfing the net, chatting before goin out in the late afternoon to meet my colleague/friend for dinner… he’s in a bit of a situation at the moment (complicated lah) so we just had dinner and chatted a bit (more of me lending him a listening ear)… walked ard the fountain of wealth before i had to go off to another colleague’s place to countdown to the new year… which was more of watching the (torturous) countdown at marina bay and the fireworks after…

looking back at the past year made me realise that yes i’m actually strong enough… to survive basically… a huge setback in 2007 meant that i spent most of 2008 trying to heal and recover which i thought i might not be able to do… so it was good to know that no matter what happens… yj has the fighting spirit to keep herself alive!! =D and that time does somewhat heal most wounds…

got to travel more last year… vegas in jan, bintan sometime in july and then taipei in november/december… i think the one i really enjoyed was vegas… ahahha my first company trip!! hopefully i will be able to get more of such experiences to come… =D

2009 will be spent working towards my europe 2010 travel goal (save money and dun spend so much) and hopefully alot more good things will happen along the way (like more money)!! hehehehe…

on the second last day of 2008… after a session of squash wif my colleagues (of which i spent a while playing by myself in a darkened squash court)… i feel numb…

i wonder where my heart went…