caffetteria

i’ve been trying to identify the paths with the heart in my life… for some areas of my life i do have some paths that i can see in front of me and for others… i know the path is there somewhat.. but right now its kinda covered in a mist/fog or even foliage… i have to figure out how to clear it so that its presented to me clearly…

what happens after you see the path? the most obvious and direct answer is to walk on it right? yes of coz… but before that… i will need to have the courage to make my feet take the first step forward… and that’s where many people are stuck… i know coz i’ve been and am there at this present moment… usually when this happens i can feel two ‘types’ of emotions… one seems to be consist of fear and generally negative (leading me to not doing anything at all but look for distractions) and the other is this exhilarating feeling that i think can be equate to the point before you step off the bungee jump platform (not tt i’ve done it before.. lol!) which is generally positive and you know somehow you will be rewarded at the end of it…

steve pavlina would probably say that the first emotion of ‘courage’ isn’t truly courage at all.. but the ego limiting oneself and i must say i agree… whereas the second is a much more rewarding form of courage because it derives from deep within yourself… and it comes frm a basis of truth and love… that is the kind of courage i am seeking to fill my life with… and the best thing is… i know it’s in me already… i’ve felt that kind of energy before and so it’s definitely not something foreign… but i think its just a matter of clearing all that mental clutter in my head when the ego start to act up so that i can access to that deeper sense of courage in me…

i tell myself this now… ‘find the path with the heart and have the courage to follow it‘ =) feels good…

yes i’m on a listening spree… my italian teacher recommended us to listen to another italian singer, tiziano ferro… his voice is amazing… he’s quite cute and i think he’s really very talented… this is one of the songs taken from his latest album “alla mia eta” and it’s  called ‘il regalo mio più grande’… my translated copy below the italian lyrics! (okay just found someone else’s translated version which makes more sense… ahhaha)

IL REGALO MIO PIU GRANDE (Tiziano Ferrò)

Italiano:

Voglio farti un regalo
Qualcosa di dolce
Qualcosa di raro
Non un comune regalo
Di quelli che hai perso
O mai aperto
O lasciato in treno
O mai accettato
Di quelli che apri e poi piangi
Che sei contenta e non fingi
In questo giorno di metà settembre
Ti dedicherò
Il regalo mio più grande

Vorrei donare il tuo sorriso alla luna perché
Di notte chi la guarda possa pensare a te
Per ricordarti che il mio amore è importante
Che non importa ciò che dice la gente perchè
Tu mi hai protetto con la tua gelosia che anche
Che molto stanco il tuo sorriso non andava via
Devo partire però se ho nel cuore
La tua presenza è sempre arrivo
E mai partenza
Regalo mio più grande
Regalo mio più grande

Vorrei mi facessi un regalo
Un sogno inespresso
Donarmelo adesso
Di quelli che non so aprire
Di fronte ad altra gente
Perché il regalo più grande
È solo nostro per sempre

Vorrei donare il tuo sorriso alla luna perché
Di notte chi la guarda possa pensare a te
Per ricordarti che il mio amore è importante
Che non importa ciò che dice la gente perchè
Tu mi hai protetto con la tua gelosia che anche
Che molto stanco il tuo sorriso non andava via
Devo partire però se ho nel cuore
La tua presenza è sempre arrivo
E mai…

E se arrivasse ora la fine
Che sia in un burrone
Non per volermi odiare
Solo per voler volare
E se ti nega tutto quest’estrema agonia
E se ti nega anche la vita respira la mia
E stavo attento a non amare prima di incontrarti
E confondevo la mia vita con quella degli altri
Non voglio farmi più del male adesso
Amore..
Amore..

Vorrei donare il tuo sorriso alla luna perché
Di notte chi la guarda possa pensare a te
Per ricordarti che il mio amore è importante
Che non importa ciò che dice la gente
E poi..
Amore dato, amore preso, amore mai reso
Amore grande come il tempo che non si è arreso
Amore che mi parla coi tuoi occhi qui di fronte
Sei tu, sei tu, sei tu, sei tu, sei tu, sei tu, sei tu, sei tu
Il regalo mio più grande

English:

I want to make you a gift
Something sweet
Something rare
Not a common gift
Of which that you have taken
never opened
or left in train
or not accepted
Of which that you open and then you cry
that you are content and you do not pretend
In this day in the mid of September
you I will dedicate
my greatest gift

I would want to donate your smile to the moon because
of the night who that guards can to think to you
For you remember that my love is important
that not matter what the people say because
you have protected me with your jealousy that also
that very tired your smile is not going away
I must leave but I know in the heart
your presence is always added
and never departed
my greatest gift
my greatest gift

I would want to make a gift
a dream unsaid
to give that now
of which that I don’t know to open
in front of other people
because the greatest gift
is only ours for always

I would want to donate your smile to the moon because
of the night who that guards can to think to you
For you remember that my love is important
that not matter what the people say because
you have protected me with your jealousy that also
that very tired your smile is not going away
I must leave but I know in the heart
your presence is always added
and never…

And if the time comes for the end
whether in a ravine
I do not want to hate
only want to fly
and if you deny all these extreme agony
and if you deny also the breath of my life
and I paid attention not to love before you met
and I confused my life with that of others
I don’t want to do me more harm now
Love…
Love…

I would want to donate your smile to the moon because
of the night who that guards can to think to you
For you remember that my love is important
that not matter what the people say
and then
the love I gave love I took love never I returned
Love as big as the time that has not surrendered
Love that tell me with your eyes here in front
You are you are you are you are you are
My greatest gift

My german friend brought this up to my attention – meaning that he asked me whether i knew about this song and that he felt i would like it… after an initial listen and checking out the lyrics… i really like the song as it gives me positive feelings of confidence and courage laced with a tinge of hope! =)

the song is titled ‘it’s amazing’ by jem and it was featured in the SATC OST (honestly i don’t rem hearing this song in the show tho… oops) and i’ve included the lyrics (taken from here) below as well…

IT’S AMAZING (Jem)

Do it now
You know who you are
If you feel it in your heart
And you’re burning and wishing

At first, wait, won’t get it on a plate
You’re gonna have to work for it harder and harder
And I knew ’cause I’ve been there before
Knocking on the doors with rejection (rejection)
And you’ll see ’cause if it’s meant to be
Nothing can compare to deserving your dreams

It’s amazing, it’s amazing
all that you can do
It’s amazing, makes my heart sing
Now it’s up to you

Patience now, frustration’s in the air
And people who don’t care
Well it’s gonna get you down
And you’ll (you’ll) fall (fall)
Yes you will hit a wall
But get back on your feet
And you’ll be stronger and smarter

And I knew ’cause I’ve been there before
Knocking down the doors won’t take “No” for an answer
And you’ll see ’cause if it’s meant to be
Nothing can compare to deserving your dreams

It’s amazing, it’s amazing
all that you can do
It’s amazing, makes my heart sing
Now it’s up to you

Ooo-ooo-ooo
[electric voice]

It’s amazing, it’s amazing
all that you can do
It’s amazing, makes my heart sing
Now it’s up to you

It’s amazing, it’s amazing
all that you can do
It’s amazing, makes my heart sing
Now it’s up to you
Ahh-ahh-ahh

*15 feb update: okay i’ve roped in a friend to come along for the trip (my fren can celebrate birthday at oktoberfest leh…) and have set the start of trip date to be tentatively on 27 sept… wahahahhahaha this feels good!

i might be going to oktoberfest (in munich) next year… and italy for sure and hopefully my german fren will be able to accompany me at least for a bit of the italia trip… he said he’s never been to florence, tuscany before so he doesn’t mind going with me (if he can…) around tuscany…

so in the meantime i shall do a bit of reading up and planning on how to get to munich from italia (or vice versa)… i’m thinking of doing a 2 week trip… hopefully that will be enough to cover the major areas of italia… i would love to visit other countries like france (paris!), switzerland (maybe can pass by?), england etc… but i’m not too sure if i am able to take so many days off or save so much money in the time i have as well… ahahahah nonetheless i will do the best that i can and no matter wat… i’m going italia!!

here are some links for my own reference… hee

http://www.lonelyplanet.com/italy/florence

http://www.lonelyplanet.com/italy/tuscany

http://www.discovertuscany.com/

http://wikitravel.org/en/Italy

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oktoberfest

another italian song (funnily enuff it was sent to me by my GERMAN fren… hehehe)  that i’m goin to try to translate (must practice!) and it’s a nice and light song titled ‘cambiera’ which means ‘will change’… check out the MTV too!! it’s super duper carina/kawaii!!

CAMBIERA (Neffa)

Italian:

Un’altra notte finisce
E un giorno nuovo sarà
Anna non essere triste
Presto il sole sorgerà
Di questi tempi si vende
Qualsiasi cosa anche la verità
Ma non sarà così sempre perchè tutto cambierà

Per ogni vita che nasce
Per ogni albero che fiorirà
Per ogni cosa del mondo
Finchè il mondo girerà
Già si vedono
Lampi all’orizzonte però
Nei tuoi occhi io mi salverò
Già si sentono tuoni aprire il cielo però
Grida forte e sai che correrò

Ora mi senti e ti sento
Siamo una sola anima
E celebriamo il momento
E il tempo che verrà
Se chi decide ha deciso
Che ora la guerra è la necessità
Io stringo i pugni e mi dico
Che tutto cambierà

Per ogni vita che nasce
Per ogni albero che fiorià
Per ogni cosa del mondo finchè il mondo girerà
Già si vedono
Lampi all’orizzonte però
Nei tuoi occhi io mi salverò
Già si sentono
Tuoni aprire il cielo però
Grida forte e sai che correrò
Tutto cambierà
Sai che cambierà
Tutto cambierà
Vedrai che cambierà
Vedrai che cambierà
Tutto cambierà

English:

Another night ends
and a new day will be
Anna don’t be sad
Soon the sun will rise
of these times sell
everything also the truth
but it will not be always  in this way because all will change

For every life that is born
For every tree that will blossom
For every thing in the world
until the world will turn
Already we see
lighting at the horizon but
in your eyes i will save myself
Already we hear thunder open the sky but
shouts loudly and you know i will run to you

Now you feel me and i feel you
We are an only soul
and we celebrate the moment
and the time that will come
If who he decides has decided
that now the war is the necessity
I tighten the fists and I say to myself
that all will change

For every life that is born
For every tree that will blossom
For every thing in the world
until the world will turn
Already we see
lighting at the horizon but
in your eyes i will save myself
Already we hear thunder open the sky but
shouts loudly and you know i will run to you

All will change
You know that will change
All will change
You will see that will change
You will see that will change
All will change